It was a difficult day today, every day I am reminded about your absence and I wonder, do you know?
Do you know that I passed and took my drivers license? Do you know that the first thing I did was taking your car and driving to the nearest flower shop where I bought a rose and a candle before driving to your grave. You were supposed to sit in the passenger seat while I drove to buy us ice cream to celebrate my birthday as well as my license, I was not supposed to drive to a grave on my 18th birthday, I was not supposed to sit next to a grave and cry. Do you know that I can’t go into some of the rooms in your and grandmas house? Do you know that I am still waiting for you to walk through the door? Do you know how much I wish that you could come back? Do you know how hard it is for me to go up to grandma and sitting in your armchair waiting for you to come in but you never do? Do you know how many times that your memory cross my mind every day? Do you know how scared I am of not remembering your face? Or the good times we shared? Do you know what I would give just to talk to you one last time? Do you know how many lives I would take if it meant bringing you back? Do you know how much I miss you?
